leaving on a jet plane. NOT
August 12, 2008my last saturday morning was quite nice. i got an email from the states that i got accepted to study there. it was an actual boost of self-esteem which i’ve been needing the most for the past few weeks. it actually made me smile. like my genuine, tagilid, kita ang gilagid, smile.
I really want to study there because i think that by going there, i will grow more as a person and that, i will be open to more possibilities and more opportunities. it’s something that i want to do for myself and for my family.
it just sucks that my parents think that i’m not independent enough to go there. i probably am. i don’t know. they’re to be blame anyway for always pampering and spoon-feeding us. i know na i could learn to be independent and that i could learn to live by myself if i’d go there. i don’t know. and kanina, my mom said that i shouldn’t leave kasi nga, depressed pa ako sa nangyari. it’s really annoying when sometimes they say things/reasons why i shouldn’t leave that are really, in my opinion, shallow.
my mom told me na she’s been asking for signs from God if i should be sent to the states. pero, isn’t my acceptance that “sign” already? i really hate wasting opportunities like these.
i really am depressed and annoyed that my parents find me immature to handle the pressures of studying abroad. i hate it that they underestimate me and i don’t deserve that kind of treatment.
i was really annoyed at my mom’s hirit kanina, “Let’s keep these letters para naman one day, makikita to ng mga anak mo and they’ll say, ‘ang galing ni daddy, in-offer-an mag-aral sa states.’” kupal.
