Career Paths

Okay, so the contents of the first part of this entry might seem very mayabang but these details are, I think, necessary to further clarify what i want to say or whatever.

I’m on my fourth year of high school and naturally, after this is college which somehow predetermines what kind of career I would have in the future. I took several tests and fortunately, I passed most of them [ Except NUS. Boo.  ]. Here are the schools  where I passed along with the course I could take:

1. Ateneo - Management Engineering

        - It’s more of a business course that would basically, earn its graduate a spot in the corporate world. It was my first choice. Well, i picked it simply because I have always wanted to take a business course even when I was in grade school because I had this mind set that earning that degree would make me filthy rich which I still believe up to now. I also picked this course simply to satisfy myself in knowing that I’ve got what it takes to qualify for the ME program since only the top 15% of the ACET applicants are qualified to this program.

2. De La Salle - Civil Engineering

        - This course would ensure me of a spot in my dad’s office [More on this later.]. I heard that DLSU has a good engineering program soooo i took the DLSUCET. Wala lang. I’ve always wanted to build things anyway so, there, CE would let me do that.  hahaha. Oh yeah, after seeing a couple of UAAP games, I wanted to become a DLSU Pep Squad Lifter. :> harharh so yun.

3. Mapua - Civil Engineering

        - Basically, because people say that Mapua provide the BEST Civli Engineering Program in less than 4 years because of their quarterly semester regime, I took the Mapua Entrance Test. It was the easiest test among all the tests I took. hahaha. 

4. UST - Civil Engineering/Nursing

        - It’s kinda obvious now that I’m really aiming for the CE program. hahaha. In UST naman, I picked Nursing because I’ve had fantasies of becoming a doctor one day specifically the one who specializes on the female organ. [Manyak.] I think they call that an OB-Gynecologist. Whatever. hahaha. Also, taking nursing in UST would mean getting the oppurtunity to hang out with my girl everyday so yun.

5. UP - Civil Engineering

        - It’s UP. Everybody takes it.

 So thereeee.

Right now, I’ve been having dilemmas on which course I should take or where I should study. I mean, it’s a pretty big decision to make and probably the hardest one I’ll ever make..

I mean, what if I pick ME and I flunk out of it or maybe I’m really not just ME material in the first place? What if my sweaty hands lead me to a medical malpractice trial if I were a doctor[Sabaw.]? It’s so hard to decide when you’re bombarded by speculations like these.

I honestly wanted ME or any business course. However, I don’t know. Parang, I don’t see a bright and reachable future in that. Yeah, I do get a stable earning and hopefully a couple of promotions, but, how successful would I be in that career?

We usally measure success by the amount of one’s paycheck but I kinda can’t help but consider where in these careers would I be happiest because I think that success is equal to happiness plus big paycheck. [ I’m so ambiguous. hahaha.]

My mom talked to me kanina and asked me which course I would like to take. She told me that I could really take whichever I wanted because she thinks that I could be successful naman in any of those. When I told her that I kinda want to take  ME, well, to simply put it, I saw disappointment in her eyes.

She told me that ME doesn’t really have a concrete field and wala, she says that being an employee is hard and she related how hard it was to earn money when she was one back then.

Then, she told me of how highly my dad thinks of me; I being the smartest among all their children.

Expectations. I am facing these and my parents want me to fulfill them.

It’s not a bad thing. I mean, I guess every parent wants his child to fulfill/achieve whatever dream he has for his kid.

What my parents expect from me is something quite difficult to do.

Since, I’m the oldest, they expect that I would be the one to pioneer a family business. Something that we could call our own. You see, my dad works for my uncle and really, the earnings are not that much. They want me to establish a business and help out my sibblings since they, according to my mom, do not have what I have. She told me how heartbreaking it would be for her and for my dad, allegedly, to see us work for our uncle and inevitably for my uncle’s children, our cousins. Well, I doubt that that would happen. My cousins look dumb to me. hahaha. 

So yun,

My mom told me that I should take Civil Engineering since it’s very related to my dad’s work. Taking this course, I would be able to put up a similar company to my uncle’s where my dad works. Yun lang, there really is money kasi in construction though earnings are not regular nor stable but are earned one time big time.

I have no qualms about the course since I’m pretty sure that it would be math-intensive and I’m kinda confident and satisfied about my math skills naman. I did put CE in my application forms not because my parents made me to but simply because i wanted that course too.

However, I really don’t like how satisfying my parents’ expectations became a part of how I am deciding on which course to take. 

I don’t know.. Too much pressure. Sana na lang kasi isang school lang pinasa ko para hindi ako namimili ng ganito. Joke. hahaha

I hope venting this out would help me sleep agad. oh well. gnyt.