leche part 2

January 26, 2008

okay. i’m gonna make another blog entry coz i still don’t feel like sleeping yet.

i hate this day.

my mom woke me up at 5:30. God. I was really hoping that i’d wake up late or that the yaya would forget to wake me up or my mom would not wake me up or that the driver won’t wake me up. Today’s my SAT II.  well. i messed up. like i’m-so-fucking-stupid-and-what-happened-to-my-four-years-of-high-school-education. I took three tests today: Physics, Chemistry and Mathematics [Order of how i took them.] Well, first test, i couldn’t stop myself from being asleep. I didn’t sleep early the night before and that made me feel sleepy throughout the test. I had around 18 blanks in physics, 14 in chemistry, 15 in math. I honestly didn’t care about the test anyway. however, it kinda made me feel stupid having to leave a lot of blanks.

i went to ust after the sat. i don’t hate that part of the day. and the garage sale. i had fun there.

the driver picked me up at around 5 and drove me home.

my dad was waiting for me and told me to get prepared because he’s taking me to these parties. I don’t mind naman whenever they bring me around, it’s just that i told them a few days ago that i had this party i wanted to attend but then they insisted on taking me to their parties [hating parents. i am so ungrateful. sobra.]. i hate how they couldn’t respect what i want to do. i mean, fuck, it’s my last year in high school and to tell you the truth, my fingers are more than all of my friends’ parties that i was able to attend combined. di ba? high school is supposed to be the time to have fun and i don’t think that i was able to get that. my parents always deprive me of that. my right to have fun. shit. [hate intensified]. I always do my part naman. I don’t get first honors pero i do get recognized for being one of the smart people in class. i don’t do drugs. i passed all the entrance tests[up,ateneo,dlsu,mapua,ust. well, not singapore but i dont care.]. i wish they would feel what parents’ of other kids who haven’t passed any college. maybe i’d understand why they won’t let me out if i were that stupid. pero, the hell. don’t i deserve to get to do what i want sometimes to have fun?

shit shit shit. pisseedddd.

 

 

leche

i’m really pissed. i am such a sissy for not doing anything about it. Why? i can’t. why? coz i’m a sissy.

i hate my parents’ inability to let go/trust. bitch. bitch. bitch.

itutulog ko na lang to.